Hyderabad
12.9.2010
Boulder hills
Day breaks for my morning walk and expeditions in Hyderabad roads at 6.00 still cloudy, wet roads on an night long drench-cold of course I set out on the Gachibouli-airport byepass .the sole road was more or less barren but clear except being disturbed by lightning speed Logons swiftly testing speeds to catch morning takeoffs .The mood on the road was pretty good.I walked past between high risen apartments of Infocity! and Sleepy securities amidst of their smokes.
yeah I walked past and fast, just that slip in seconds that flashed, my heart and soul needed a console for reasons unknown thoughts of my work ,age and the loneliness I need to bear to become a techie .Suddenly I felt once more I was lone and needed a consoling part right then for rescue. Now started peeping into Logans for a known soul of mine.after an retreat moment wondering the way my thoughts moved past in times that had gone with the Bengali bubble and her blues in me.
With a deep breath …….phased fast my walk avoiding mind slips but I felt someone was moving on my footsteps I left behind … too close I don’t want to let my feel astray from bubble…..yes Bengali bubble whom I thought was on my side and also close behind. I felt the rasgola was there with me now ,to console me and rescue out of barren thoughts in the empty road in early morning.
Now things became more human and heard some sounds swiftly breaking silence ,but shocked on seeing the sharp teethed domestic stray beasts, long tongued nearing me ….too close…and too close suddenly the sign board “Boulder Hill” reminded me to bow and pick a boulder unshaped but sure to strike .of shock on my mock to strike back the wagtails howled back startled and stunned but were sure to cross the divider on to the retreat road in boulder hill leaving me far behind.
Continued to move ahead in the unknown path , I now really felt sorry for my kiddy attire to stone the stray beasts , as I was more alone now no followers …no thoughts of past in the empty roads and started examining the boulder in my hand and its mother boulders which were now far behind, I was once again empty except the parted boulder waiting me to part it suffering between my palms grip and loose to fall.
I badly needed someone to console my heart which had no reason to be unhappy ….but I don’t know why I felt to tear down drops to simply console ‘her’ but why to do that after years of break after the ‘first love’.
Now I really don’t know why I filled the Bengali bubble after all these years ….yeah really .no shame on my side now to reveal it myself after all ‘heart is always a heart ‘…thought is always a thought…..and love is all time a love ! no boundaries , age and on and on.
Unbelievable .I once again confronted with love in daybreak of today !in midway of my path . once again there were Four legs following me out of fear waved the boulder across the road off course empty except a lonely Logan on lightening speed and confident enough to race me in the barren road and as usual disappear fast between the valley across the road.
With no change in pace and not regretted for losing the race with Logans every time today , continued but now I don’t want to continue with my mind wandering deep and deep into my heart due to loneliness so was to turn back …just then the green Logon just past me in lightening speed startled and stopped and the left door opened at a stroke and appeared the surprise….Unbelievable, she just ran onto me and planted a hug ,me too pressed her back to fill the gap in between the boulder got in ,struck her back and my palm preventing my warmth touch ,not able to drop…too close …no talks…just she eyed my eyes which were already into her’s and she broke the five second silence and whispered ,yeah…. I got what I longed just this morning ..yes the same console my heart longed for without any reason just now and the same thoughts which were to breed tears ….she then said I need to catch the flight ,before I could open my mouth to react she shook her hands with mine ,I felt the chemistry start working in me she moved apart me to the car with my hands ….she entered the car ,before I could open my mouth she just said me “Bala you had wounded me on my back”… ‘eventhough I had a strait encounter with you now…’, but with a furious smile…Logon rolled apart not even waiting for my reply.
I couldn’t speak a word but lost all the loneliness I felt this morning ..when I tried to open my mouth to explain her what struck her back she said she would call and hear it from me and thanked me for I was there to relieve her from the loneliness she had in the day break in boulder hills . I wagged my hands towards the car till it disappeared in the valley but with giggling heart on the bubble’s hug and the scent she left on me ……..yes I remember her saying that as being a techie in software industry had no time to wash or to change as she was in flying colours but I felt she too had hard times with loneliness inspite being paid rich…..yes it has its limitations.
I walked back fast the boulder hills cropping up, buildings outcropping just then I heard a plane flying above me flying towards horizon ,now I understood horizons are never reached ….I then wagged my palm along with the boulder towards the direction of the plane where I assumed she was flying onto her future colours but truly she broke the ice and off course my loneliness too…
I now felt was late and so started rushing back to my room and now followed by too many domestic beasts following me on multiple four legs and an leaping one too….what a surprise no kiddy in me now, I don’t want to hurl the boulder on the followers in four legs as selfish struck me as I long for the same surprise chance where I would explain my dear her that what struck her from behind was a ‘baby boulder’ of boulder hills……Yes, I never hurt anyone from behind only the rock with me ,in me is against my love! …..
By,
Bala the sadist
